Leave me alone.

I don't ask why you live life as a completely normal person who is so obviously mentally intact to have the right to call people out who aren't.

I don't know why I act like a complete nutcase all the time.
Lately I've even been asking myself if I even have what it takes to fulfill my life as an adult.

Also things like having a life to live now that I don't have to live in constant fear that impending doom is limiting my time here to truly make something of myself. A phobia I've had which caused panic attacks and loss of sleep since I was ten years old.
It eventually took a turn to fear of time and death in general.

I'm sorry if I make you mad with my rambling and jokes with no punchline, but at least I'm trying my best act sane.

Don't feel unique either.

Lately I've been having a lot of depression. I've realised I'm not a normal person either. I've been staying in my house since we left school, and I haven't talked with anyone I know. I think I did like hell in the standarized tests and it's all my fault for not studying when I had time. Now, if I did bad on those I'm going to dissapoint everyone. My mother and father. Those are the only two persons I actually love in this world, and I've already found out that they are pissed at how stupid I can be.
I don't know which career will I study, I don't even know if university is for me. That said, I don't wanna grow up either. I just want to stay asleep from now on until I die.

And this week has been the worst week I've had in years. Like, really bad.

Sorry if I'm acting like an idiot. Sometimes it just happens. But I'm tired of being the one that must always be happy and cheerful.

Sometimes I just want to be completely different and send the entire world to hell. But when you do, ♥♥♥♥ like this happens.

Sorry again.

♥♥♥♥ you Sothe, you screwd a conversation.